I am going to be quick on this one. So I'm 2 months into the job, and I haven't quit yet. I have thought about it over poor management. But screw it. As long as I am getting full time hours and my paycheck is correct, I guess I'm good. Christmas is finally over. It was fantastic though. And now New Years is almost here and I still don't have plans, big surprise. I have been going out a little more than usual lately, I blame it on peer pressure from my bestee. It's his fault. I still haven't met Mr Right or Mr. Right now. My friends seen to be getting younger and younger. But its all good. Maybe one will have a really hot dad, LOL. I'm just kidding, ok well if he's hot maybe I'm not.
The kids have been pretty good. They have been home for break for a week now and I haven't tried locking them in the garage..yet. But then again, I am at work alot. As I sit here and reflect over the past 12 months, alot has changed. I moved, the kids are in new schools (and getting better grades), I have a job, and I have made a few new friends. But I also miss alot of friends. Especially my ones from Centreville. I wish my living situation was different so I could have my friends over more, hell have them over period. Since I have moved in I have had 2 friends come over. And one I have been friends with for over 20 years. And the other one isn't even 20 years old..... Big difference.
Well, thats about all I have to report now. Hopefully after the new year I'll have lots of juice to spill!
Welcome 2011!
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
The Holidays Are Super Close & and I am annoyed
First off, let me wish you and yours a very merry christmas. YES merry christmas, sure happy holidays, but this week its MERRY FREAKING CHRISTMAS!!!! Shopping was ok on sunday. No lines at the registers, as a matter of fact yesterday I went to Kohls at 430pm and was out by 436pm. Ok, I know you are reading this for my boring shopping stories. So let me rant about work, after all, rant is what I do second best.
So my work is run by teenagers. Well not teenagers, but they act like them. Our schedule for monday isn't posted until sunday evenings. There is NO follow thru on anything (ie, I was told by the owner to make a daily checklist, which I made 3 weeks ago. It has yet to be implemented so shit falls thru the cracks everyday!) Potential clients are not properly noted in the computer (why are they getting a massage? relaxation or soreness?). Therapist are calling out, for instance- one said on tuesday that her grandfather had passed and she needed to go to his funeral on saturday (remember this was tuesday) she would work the restof the week but needed saturday off. The "clinic administrator" aka assistant manager heard me talking to her and asked to speak with her, again this was TUESDAY. Well saturday comes along. And guess what, she was never taken off the schedule and her clients weren't rescheduled! And when was this discovered? 35 minutes before the client's arrival! And I know very well on tuesday she only had 3 clients booked and they were early in the day. I was pissed. I was the person who had to bite my tongue and call the clients and tell them. I had to lie and say the therapist just found out, which she didn't. Urgh! I think I may be a little too bossy at work. funny thing though, its not the people I boss around that complain, but other wellness consultants. And I love the ones I "boss around" because they defend me. Every one says that I am not bossing them that I am helping them learn how to sell. Like yesterday, well we are having a gift card selling contest. The rules are stupid, they prizes suck, etc. But I am still selling the shit out of them just for bragging rights. Oh yeah, theres one big catch, no matter how good YOU do, your partner has to do the same. I am whooping everyone else's ass. I have sold over $1000 above the next closest person. And I am $1000's above everyone else. So yesterday me and my partner happen to be on the same shift. So we came up with a game plan. She was to stand at the computer closest to the door to great people as they came in and listen for that "I'm looking for a gift card" and then I would dart around the desk and sell them the gift card package, that best fit their needs. Well one of the other WC told my partner that she shouldn't let me boss her around and take her GC sales, well what that little shit didn't know is that I didn't even ring any of those sales under me, we rang them all up under my partner! Dumbass! I'm not "clifton" who's healthy, happy, and LOVES horses. LOL, I guess you wont get that cuz its an inside joke. But still funny as hell. Now that monkey hangs out atthe door, CONSTANTLY cleaning the windows. I gotta give it to the man, he a mature adult (who LOVES horses), he greats EVERY person who comes in the door, but he takes an hour to sell one gift card for $75. Whatever, I just bored myself by talking about work. So if you're still awake I'll tell you about my new "friend", Gigi Ganjay. OMG this chick is freaking hilarious!!!!!! You can find her at http://www.Cannabisplanet.tv. I friended her on facebook, however, I feel its my destiny to meet her. We would have one KICKASS tv show!!! It would only be able to be seen on the internet, G4, or Adult Swim, but I'm cool with that.
Alright, I am running out of time so lemme give one more rant, I'll try to end on a positive note (I said TRY). So I have this friend. I talk/text to him everyday. Well the other day I went over to his house. His daughter comes home and she says, oh no, what is Gina doing here? Yet a few minutes later comes over and hugs me hi and says, I'm only kidding. Well, I really don't like it. I have been eternally debating with my self as to whether or not I should even remain friends with them or just stop going to their house. His wife busted me out for "seducing" a 20 year old. (In my defense, he's really hot!!!) His daughter talks shit to me. His nephew can't decide if he likes me or not (he totally does, HELLO, I am a magnet for 19-22 year olds) so he is a shithead to me all the time, just like back in grade school when you liked someone you were always mean to him. I may just not go over to their house for a while (we'll see how long that will last). Ok, end on a good note-I said. So I have found a fun playmate. I really like hanging with this kid. He is so cool, we have great conversations, and he's just fun to be around. He lives in a messed up situation like me. Last week we both "snuck out" on a school night and went to the liquor store and then went and played pool for a few hours. I was home by eleven. But I really like hanging with this kid, if only he was 10 years older I'd probably like him on a different level. His dad was really f-ing hot in high school! oh, did I leave that part out? yeah, so he is a guy I went to high school with son. (once again a magnet for the young'uns) The poor kid just wants to live his life. By saying that I mean, he wants to go to college, however he wants the Army to pay for it. He's only 19, (we share our birthday) so I think he should do it. But his family I pressuring him to go to college and skip the Army. I remember when I was 19. I sure the hell wasn't just some "teenager". I lived on my own, in my own apartment (with a roommate), then up and moved out to California. So I can definately see where he is coming from. (yet now look, I'm back at home at mommys)
Well, I have to get ready for work. I hope I ended on a positive (enough) note. Tune in next week if not sooner for more of the "these are the days gina cries" stories.
So my work is run by teenagers. Well not teenagers, but they act like them. Our schedule for monday isn't posted until sunday evenings. There is NO follow thru on anything (ie, I was told by the owner to make a daily checklist, which I made 3 weeks ago. It has yet to be implemented so shit falls thru the cracks everyday!) Potential clients are not properly noted in the computer (why are they getting a massage? relaxation or soreness?). Therapist are calling out, for instance- one said on tuesday that her grandfather had passed and she needed to go to his funeral on saturday (remember this was tuesday) she would work the restof the week but needed saturday off. The "clinic administrator" aka assistant manager heard me talking to her and asked to speak with her, again this was TUESDAY. Well saturday comes along. And guess what, she was never taken off the schedule and her clients weren't rescheduled! And when was this discovered? 35 minutes before the client's arrival! And I know very well on tuesday she only had 3 clients booked and they were early in the day. I was pissed. I was the person who had to bite my tongue and call the clients and tell them. I had to lie and say the therapist just found out, which she didn't. Urgh! I think I may be a little too bossy at work. funny thing though, its not the people I boss around that complain, but other wellness consultants. And I love the ones I "boss around" because they defend me. Every one says that I am not bossing them that I am helping them learn how to sell. Like yesterday, well we are having a gift card selling contest. The rules are stupid, they prizes suck, etc. But I am still selling the shit out of them just for bragging rights. Oh yeah, theres one big catch, no matter how good YOU do, your partner has to do the same. I am whooping everyone else's ass. I have sold over $1000 above the next closest person. And I am $1000's above everyone else. So yesterday me and my partner happen to be on the same shift. So we came up with a game plan. She was to stand at the computer closest to the door to great people as they came in and listen for that "I'm looking for a gift card" and then I would dart around the desk and sell them the gift card package, that best fit their needs. Well one of the other WC told my partner that she shouldn't let me boss her around and take her GC sales, well what that little shit didn't know is that I didn't even ring any of those sales under me, we rang them all up under my partner! Dumbass! I'm not "clifton" who's healthy, happy, and LOVES horses. LOL, I guess you wont get that cuz its an inside joke. But still funny as hell. Now that monkey hangs out atthe door, CONSTANTLY cleaning the windows. I gotta give it to the man, he a mature adult (who LOVES horses), he greats EVERY person who comes in the door, but he takes an hour to sell one gift card for $75. Whatever, I just bored myself by talking about work. So if you're still awake I'll tell you about my new "friend", Gigi Ganjay. OMG this chick is freaking hilarious!!!!!! You can find her at http://www.Cannabisplanet.tv. I friended her on facebook, however, I feel its my destiny to meet her. We would have one KICKASS tv show!!! It would only be able to be seen on the internet, G4, or Adult Swim, but I'm cool with that.
Alright, I am running out of time so lemme give one more rant, I'll try to end on a positive note (I said TRY). So I have this friend. I talk/text to him everyday. Well the other day I went over to his house. His daughter comes home and she says, oh no, what is Gina doing here? Yet a few minutes later comes over and hugs me hi and says, I'm only kidding. Well, I really don't like it. I have been eternally debating with my self as to whether or not I should even remain friends with them or just stop going to their house. His wife busted me out for "seducing" a 20 year old. (In my defense, he's really hot!!!) His daughter talks shit to me. His nephew can't decide if he likes me or not (he totally does, HELLO, I am a magnet for 19-22 year olds) so he is a shithead to me all the time, just like back in grade school when you liked someone you were always mean to him. I may just not go over to their house for a while (we'll see how long that will last). Ok, end on a good note-I said. So I have found a fun playmate. I really like hanging with this kid. He is so cool, we have great conversations, and he's just fun to be around. He lives in a messed up situation like me. Last week we both "snuck out" on a school night and went to the liquor store and then went and played pool for a few hours. I was home by eleven. But I really like hanging with this kid, if only he was 10 years older I'd probably like him on a different level. His dad was really f-ing hot in high school! oh, did I leave that part out? yeah, so he is a guy I went to high school with son. (once again a magnet for the young'uns) The poor kid just wants to live his life. By saying that I mean, he wants to go to college, however he wants the Army to pay for it. He's only 19, (we share our birthday) so I think he should do it. But his family I pressuring him to go to college and skip the Army. I remember when I was 19. I sure the hell wasn't just some "teenager". I lived on my own, in my own apartment (with a roommate), then up and moved out to California. So I can definately see where he is coming from. (yet now look, I'm back at home at mommys)
Well, I have to get ready for work. I hope I ended on a positive (enough) note. Tune in next week if not sooner for more of the "these are the days gina cries" stories.
Monday, November 29, 2010
The Holidays Are Here! The Holidays Are Here!
Well time has just flown by. The holidays have started. Thankfully the girls school made sure we had a great Thanksgiving Dinner. Mom and I stayed up all night drinking wine and talking the night before. Ugh, that wine hangover sucked.
The job is going great. Sam is starting to slack in school, however we talked about it the other day and I hope she is back on track. Kim has started reading better already. And Mia is still doing great. So, what do I have to blog about? Let me think....
Still no prospects of a man in my life. The dating site is really sucking. Did you know that there are mostly perverts on there? Of course you did, why didn't you tell me! Oh well. Maybe after the new year I will try eharmony. Oh, I had my birthday last weekend. I met up with some friends at Morgans Sports Bar in hoodbridge. Not a good looking man in sight. Cept for G and he doesn't count. Was happy to go with my pal Mollie, but she wasn't feeling well so she went home and of course I stayed. The party and after party isn't much to write about so I'll skip the boring details. Except for being called sexy by a 19 year old, that was flattering.
I got cool stuff from my family for my birthday. But the most exciting was from my sister. Tarot cards! I have always wanted them and now I have them. I have been reading the book that came with them. And I think the book is legit. There were a few warnings in it, do not read to your family or friends until you have become a master (which doesn't take long) because you could give them a bad reading and mess up a relationship or two. And caution that your dreams would become more vivid. Are you serious? My dream could be more vivid? Don't know if I can handle that. The same 2 men keep popping up in my dreams, just not as the same time, luckily. And just other things in my dreams have been really weird since I started reading the book. Another thing is you have to keep a journal. Logging card meanings and feelings and emotions you get when reading a certain card. And also to log the dreams you begin to have. And man have my dreams been wacked out! Like the first night of reading the book I dreamed that I was taking this guy I know, (who happens to be really hot) to see his niece and nephew at some farm out in a mountainous area. He was playing with the kids and it was so cute. We were driving off and then my van started flying and the damn alarm went off and woke me up! (ps, he doesn't even have a niece or nephew) You might be wondering, why he isn't a prospect. Well, theres a couple of reasons. For one he is moving away after the new year, he doesn't live near by, and his living arrangements are just as f'ed up as mine, yet he owns his house. But damn is he cute and a good kisser! Anywho, enough about the fish thats getting away. Oh yeah, back to the holidays.
Christmas is speeding upon us. And having kids in a divorce, well they expect more. And it feels like a competition with their dad for who buys the best gifts. However, this year I am not gonna break myself to "win". I am going to bank money to move, I'll get to the move in a few minutes in I have time. Now that I have the job, which currently they are giving me full time hours which is good, but I need to make more sales to bring up my hourly rate cuz it really sucks! And these people with giftcards are really getting on my last nerve. Did you enjoy your massage? YES, Would you like to receive a massage on a monthly basis? Yes. Then why not become a member? I swear, if I hear- I dont know how much money I'll have due to the holidays, I'm gonna smack somebody. Listen jackass, I just told you that you wont even be paying anything until AFTER christmas, DUH! Is your brain that much like jello? (I did get a massage last week and it made me so stoopified I couldn't even type afterwards) Getting massages has been proven to improve overall health and well being. damn, there I go off on a tangent again. Maybe I do need to take my Concerta meds after all.
I haven't been able to go out to hang with my friends very much lately since I started working. But I did yesterday. I went over to my "besties" house to watch some football. And if you know me, you know I don't dig football. But I wanted to get out of the house (other than for work) and see the friends. Had a great time, Sam got to drive home so she was happy, and I love having a designated driver. The girls behaved very good. Kim spent most her time with the dogs. Mia complained a lot that she wanted to go home, then when I said we were going home she didn't want to leave. Well its time for the kids to come home and I have to harvest my crops on farmville. Hopefully, I'll blog again this week!
Take Care!
The job is going great. Sam is starting to slack in school, however we talked about it the other day and I hope she is back on track. Kim has started reading better already. And Mia is still doing great. So, what do I have to blog about? Let me think....
Still no prospects of a man in my life. The dating site is really sucking. Did you know that there are mostly perverts on there? Of course you did, why didn't you tell me! Oh well. Maybe after the new year I will try eharmony. Oh, I had my birthday last weekend. I met up with some friends at Morgans Sports Bar in hoodbridge. Not a good looking man in sight. Cept for G and he doesn't count. Was happy to go with my pal Mollie, but she wasn't feeling well so she went home and of course I stayed. The party and after party isn't much to write about so I'll skip the boring details. Except for being called sexy by a 19 year old, that was flattering.
I got cool stuff from my family for my birthday. But the most exciting was from my sister. Tarot cards! I have always wanted them and now I have them. I have been reading the book that came with them. And I think the book is legit. There were a few warnings in it, do not read to your family or friends until you have become a master (which doesn't take long) because you could give them a bad reading and mess up a relationship or two. And caution that your dreams would become more vivid. Are you serious? My dream could be more vivid? Don't know if I can handle that. The same 2 men keep popping up in my dreams, just not as the same time, luckily. And just other things in my dreams have been really weird since I started reading the book. Another thing is you have to keep a journal. Logging card meanings and feelings and emotions you get when reading a certain card. And also to log the dreams you begin to have. And man have my dreams been wacked out! Like the first night of reading the book I dreamed that I was taking this guy I know, (who happens to be really hot) to see his niece and nephew at some farm out in a mountainous area. He was playing with the kids and it was so cute. We were driving off and then my van started flying and the damn alarm went off and woke me up! (ps, he doesn't even have a niece or nephew) You might be wondering, why he isn't a prospect. Well, theres a couple of reasons. For one he is moving away after the new year, he doesn't live near by, and his living arrangements are just as f'ed up as mine, yet he owns his house. But damn is he cute and a good kisser! Anywho, enough about the fish thats getting away. Oh yeah, back to the holidays.
Christmas is speeding upon us. And having kids in a divorce, well they expect more. And it feels like a competition with their dad for who buys the best gifts. However, this year I am not gonna break myself to "win". I am going to bank money to move, I'll get to the move in a few minutes in I have time. Now that I have the job, which currently they are giving me full time hours which is good, but I need to make more sales to bring up my hourly rate cuz it really sucks! And these people with giftcards are really getting on my last nerve. Did you enjoy your massage? YES, Would you like to receive a massage on a monthly basis? Yes. Then why not become a member? I swear, if I hear- I dont know how much money I'll have due to the holidays, I'm gonna smack somebody. Listen jackass, I just told you that you wont even be paying anything until AFTER christmas, DUH! Is your brain that much like jello? (I did get a massage last week and it made me so stoopified I couldn't even type afterwards) Getting massages has been proven to improve overall health and well being. damn, there I go off on a tangent again. Maybe I do need to take my Concerta meds after all.
I haven't been able to go out to hang with my friends very much lately since I started working. But I did yesterday. I went over to my "besties" house to watch some football. And if you know me, you know I don't dig football. But I wanted to get out of the house (other than for work) and see the friends. Had a great time, Sam got to drive home so she was happy, and I love having a designated driver. The girls behaved very good. Kim spent most her time with the dogs. Mia complained a lot that she wanted to go home, then when I said we were going home she didn't want to leave. Well its time for the kids to come home and I have to harvest my crops on farmville. Hopefully, I'll blog again this week!
Take Care!
Thursday, November 11, 2010
New Direction in Life
Welcome back. So a few things have changed. After a long time of searching I having finally found a job and returned back to the work force. I am now A Wellness Consultant for Massage Envy. I highly recommend them! Yes, I am sure you have seen the signs or read the advertisement for the $49 for one hour massage (and they even do prenatal massages too). Well its true, AND its not a scam. It is a membership based wellness clinic providing facials, all sorts of massages (no, no happy endings, but you will be happy with your massage). So far I love everyone I have met. I am still in training. Its super easy for me and I am bored with training as I have done membership sales before and I know the drill. I plan on managing my own clinic within 6-9 months. I'd like to oversee multiple clinics within a year. Yes, I am that ambitious. Plus I like being the boss.
The kids just got their report cards. Mia's was fantastic! Kim's said she should be in kindergarten, she's in 2nd grade, and Sam could have been on the honor roll but she chose to get an F. If she doesn't bring it up and be on the honor roll next quarter, she cant go to Colorado to visit her best friend. And I know how bad she wants to see her.
On the home-front, well still at the "mom's" house. I hate it but I love being with my entire family. I miss my sister so very much. Something has happened recently that has torn our family apart and I don't think it can be repaired. Now that I have a job, I will probably loose my food stamps so there goes $600 of my income, and my income isn't very much at all until I get out of training and can do some sales. The dog hair is driving me crazy and kim is always sick.
Now to dating. I miss my ex-husband so freaking much. I hate to admit it, but I would love to have him back in our lives, everyday & night. But I know it will never happen. He hasn't filed for divorce yet, luckily. I think just for financial reasons (taxes & insurance). I kind of like this man. I have known him for a long time, but I don't think he is a one woman man. But you never know. I'm not gonna push it. Besides, there are too many fish in the sea. I am doing my best to stay away from the young guys. Haven't found any suitable yet, just one night fun. Which has made it awkward when we hang out, he usually takes off and hides. Can't say that I blame him, he did get taunted and teased about it, assholes.
Well, I don't have much else to report right now, plus I have to get to training.
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The kids just got their report cards. Mia's was fantastic! Kim's said she should be in kindergarten, she's in 2nd grade, and Sam could have been on the honor roll but she chose to get an F. If she doesn't bring it up and be on the honor roll next quarter, she cant go to Colorado to visit her best friend. And I know how bad she wants to see her.
On the home-front, well still at the "mom's" house. I hate it but I love being with my entire family. I miss my sister so very much. Something has happened recently that has torn our family apart and I don't think it can be repaired. Now that I have a job, I will probably loose my food stamps so there goes $600 of my income, and my income isn't very much at all until I get out of training and can do some sales. The dog hair is driving me crazy and kim is always sick.
Now to dating. I miss my ex-husband so freaking much. I hate to admit it, but I would love to have him back in our lives, everyday & night. But I know it will never happen. He hasn't filed for divorce yet, luckily. I think just for financial reasons (taxes & insurance). I kind of like this man. I have known him for a long time, but I don't think he is a one woman man. But you never know. I'm not gonna push it. Besides, there are too many fish in the sea. I am doing my best to stay away from the young guys. Haven't found any suitable yet, just one night fun. Which has made it awkward when we hang out, he usually takes off and hides. Can't say that I blame him, he did get taunted and teased about it, assholes.
Well, I don't have much else to report right now, plus I have to get to training.
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Friday, October 8, 2010
Another Summer Has Ended
Today is October 6, 2010. Summer has been officially over for 1 month now. And We have been living with my mother for 3 months and 6 days. That's 3 months and 6 days too long. I knew moving in here would be a bad, real bad idea but I didn't have much of a choice since I haven't had a job since April 2008. For the past year I had been actively looking for a job. But with 3 kids in school and no reliable childcare there was slim pickins of any decent jobs. Our lease ended June 30 so my mother needed help with her bills and we needed a place to live. So I sucked it up and moved in with her and my brother who also is unemployed and has been living here since November 2009. So we move in I give my mom $200 of my $263 a week child support (when I even receive it). That leaves me with $63 a week to pay a $160/month cell phone bill, gas, and any adult entertainment I want to enjoy (beer & smokes). And no I haven't always smoked, I actually only started a few years ago, but whatever. We had lived with my mother for almost 2 months when one night we (my oldest and youngest daughters) went to a going away party for a neighbor from our old neighborhood. Well I didn't intend on getting drunk. I only had a couple of beers and a shot. UNTIL, I went to find the teenager, who was outside with her bed friend crying. She was after all loosing her best friend of 4 years since she was moving to another state. Well she had a bottle of water and I was thirsty so I chugged it, well it wasn't water. It was freaking Vodka, just like the scene out of the Cheech & Chong movie where they get arrested and Tommy Chong was tripping really hard and went to drink the Judge's water and he spews it out. And yells, "that's fucking vodka man". Well I didn't spew it out, I drank it. Yes, the whole water bottle. And boy did I get fucked up in a minute! So we get a ride home since I obviously couldn't drive. Well, I guess me and my daughter were too loud for my mom (who was already in bed) so she gets pissed and called the cops on us. What a bitch, ya know. Its not like we were fighting, I had already laid into my daughter for drinking before we even got home. So I was in a funny chillin happy drunk mood. That WAS until my mother wakes up. Its midnight on a Saturday night, comeon! Well the cops come and they interview us all including my seven year old. And that's the exact same thing the cop says to me outside. That we our in "our home", not disturbing our neighbors, not harming anyone, so they just leave. Well that just infuriated my mother because she looked like an idiot. I don't know what the hell she was expecting. Was she expecting me to get arrested? Was she expecting my daughter to get arrested? I'm thinking she was lucky as hell that I am not the hellraiser I once was or I would have gotten very physical with her, especially when I found out days later that she had punched my daughter 2 times and hit her 2 times. Oh my god, I really don't think she knows how lucky she is that I didn't know she did it that night. I also found out that my seven year old had told the police that and my teenager told the police that she didn't want to press charges. So it really backfired on my mother. We didn't talk at all for a few days but I'd hear her running her mouth as she does with my brother downstairs. On Monday she walks in the door after work and gives me a letter of eviction stating that WE had caused a disturbance that resulted in the summoning of Fairfax County Police, providing alcohol to a minor, and failure to maintain a peaceful environment. What the fuck! First off I didn't provide my daughter with alcohol. I caught her with it and took it from her and bitched her out for it. Peaceful environment??? Have you met my mother? ANYONE, ANYONE who knows her thinks shes a total self-richous, always right, nagging, crazy bitch. That's why no one will come over here. They all know she's crazy. Even my brothers friends wont come over to watch football. And my friends are party animals and will party anywhere anytime, they wont even come over after meeting her at my home. We can't even get anyone to come over and play poker (yes for real cash) anymore because she threw a temper tantrum the last 3 times we played and made a fool of herself. I decide to be the bigger better person and I apologize to my mom "for being a disturbance". I then beg her to let us stay since I had given her 76% of my child support so I can live in the freaking family room, no I don't even have my own room. I had NO money, no credit, no furniture, nothing except clothes for me and my girls, 2 beds, 1 tv, toys, and 1 dresser. yes, that's it. That's all we have to our name, oh and my van, halloween decorations, and camping gear. I was ready to do the same thing to my kids, all 3 of them, that my mom did with me when she left my dad. We packed up, left West Virginia, came to VA and lived in a campground for 3 months. Now thinking back, I wish I had done that. It would have been alot cheaper, I would have had my own room (it may have been in a tent, but still my own room) and right now I could have saved up at least $2000 and be in our own place. It sucks so much to be "stuck" here. My kids are all 3 in schools they love with teachers that they love. So back to my original rant. This incident has been lingering in my head, everyday. It like walking on eggshells. I never know when I am going to piss her off again and she will kick us out- again. I heard the best thing last night htough. I heard her telling my kids how her house was always clean and orderly before we moved in. Yeah, because her boyfriend/roomate/my stepdad cleaned it all the time, not her. And when he got tired of her craziness he moved out. Who cleaned her house after that? I did. I still would clean my house and come over and clean her house. She was also talking about how clean her room is. Yeah of course it is, she didn't have to squeeze at least 2 rooms into her little space as myself and my kids are. We went from a 3 level, almost 2000 sq foot townhouse with 4 bathrooms, 3 bedrooms, large living room, large recroom, kitchen, dining room, and 2 large storage areas to a 2 level, 2 small bedrooms and the room I have to live in. Oh and who cleans her room now? I do. I vacuum and dust it weekly for her as well as the whole house on a much more frequent basis because of her 2 hairy dogs.
So the moral of this rant, I can not wait to get out of this house and back on my own. Because if we move out of here on bad terms (her evicting us) I will never have anything to do with her again, this will be her 3rd strike. Two times now she has asked me to move back home and two times before she has kicked me out. And she will loose the only grandkids she has. I do love my mother dearly. Unlike her, I have given up MY life for my kids, she didn't do that when we moved here. She was still young and I was 13 so she could still party and go out and meet men. Where I can't. According to her, she is "not babysitting my kids". Um, in case she forgot, I have a 15 year old who is more than eager to earn $5/hour watching the kids.
If she evicts us (again), we will move away from here and never look back. But if I get on my feet, I will do my best to find a place here in burke so I can keep the kids in the schools they love. (and just so happens there is a house for rent up the street). And I can remain civil with my mother. I'd really hate to loose my sister and brother over my mom. But I will give up what I have to to provide for my kids and to have them in a "single family household" again.
I feel much better now to get this off my chest. I hope my next blog isnt so bitchy. I have a very busy weekend ahead of me. Tonight there is a High School football game. My old high school vs my daughters high school. Then Tomorrow thru Sunday evening I will be working. And I hope I do great at it, I really need the money!
So the moral of this rant, I can not wait to get out of this house and back on my own. Because if we move out of here on bad terms (her evicting us) I will never have anything to do with her again, this will be her 3rd strike. Two times now she has asked me to move back home and two times before she has kicked me out. And she will loose the only grandkids she has. I do love my mother dearly. Unlike her, I have given up MY life for my kids, she didn't do that when we moved here. She was still young and I was 13 so she could still party and go out and meet men. Where I can't. According to her, she is "not babysitting my kids". Um, in case she forgot, I have a 15 year old who is more than eager to earn $5/hour watching the kids.
If she evicts us (again), we will move away from here and never look back. But if I get on my feet, I will do my best to find a place here in burke so I can keep the kids in the schools they love. (and just so happens there is a house for rent up the street). And I can remain civil with my mother. I'd really hate to loose my sister and brother over my mom. But I will give up what I have to to provide for my kids and to have them in a "single family household" again.
I feel much better now to get this off my chest. I hope my next blog isnt so bitchy. I have a very busy weekend ahead of me. Tonight there is a High School football game. My old high school vs my daughters high school. Then Tomorrow thru Sunday evening I will be working. And I hope I do great at it, I really need the money!
Monday, October 4, 2010
Welcome to my blogspot!
So welcome to my blogspot. It has been created by one of my awesome friends who also felt that I could spread some cheer, gossip, advice, ask for advice, and well just about anything a Suburban Housewife or Nosey Nancy could want to read. Let me tell you a little about me NOW and then I will tell you some things that got me to where I am.
I am a 30 something, oh hell lets face it, I am almost 38 years old. UGH, that even looks as bad as it sounds. I feel 27. I have 3 wonderfully crazy daughters. And unfortunately we are living with my mother for now. You see, May of 2009 my husband, whom I had been with for 13 years decided he didn't want to be married anymore. So he just up and moved out, taking my heart with him. Lucky for us, he still continued to take care of us financially for the next 12 months. A lot happened over that year. After he moved out, my hormones went crazy. The lack of sex we had during the past 9 years had just all built up. At first I was extremely and completely heartbroken. So I took my frustrations out by just going crazy, literally. So I ended up with a 5 day stint in the hospital. And it was there I mean one of my current best friends. And we have been great friends since, and I will talk more about her later.
So over that year I lost my husband who I thought was my best friend, I lost my best friend of over 20 years over another man (he wasn't really worth it, but turns out neither was she), I made new friends in my neighborhood who I absolutely fell in love with. Summer was great! My kids and I hung out at the pool almost every day. And if we weren't at the pool we were making the most of our superslide, or we were down in Fredericksburg at the Lake of the Woods enjoying the private beach and making more friends. Which is where I met man #1. I am single afterall, right? After the week or so of "funtime" with the man who assisted in breaking me and my best friend up I started dating/seeing another man that I met over a dating website. This time I thought it would be smart for me to date an older man, just a couple years older. However that didn't last. Turns out he was nothing that I wanted in a man. I wasn't physically attracted to him but I did enjoy his company. Maybe it was just that I was so alone I wanted to be with someone. But I did learn that perhaps I might like to try younger men. So I joined a few dating sites. Did you know that men are completely stupid and never read womens profiles but just look at the pictures? (and I do take great pictures, most of the time) Now, about 12 months after joining them, I have yet to meet or even email with a decent man. They are ALL complete morons! So I have closed all of the accounts. What a bunch of wasted money. So now I am flying by the seat of my pants, or lack there of.
So many of my newly or not so newly friends have hooked up with old friends they haven't seen or talked to in years, all because of Facebook. So I figured that I will "network" and see how that works. So far, its been interesting to say the least.
Well, I must log out for now. I hope to add more and more blogs daily and hope that some of the people I write about don't ever read this.
TTFN
I am a 30 something, oh hell lets face it, I am almost 38 years old. UGH, that even looks as bad as it sounds. I feel 27. I have 3 wonderfully crazy daughters. And unfortunately we are living with my mother for now. You see, May of 2009 my husband, whom I had been with for 13 years decided he didn't want to be married anymore. So he just up and moved out, taking my heart with him. Lucky for us, he still continued to take care of us financially for the next 12 months. A lot happened over that year. After he moved out, my hormones went crazy. The lack of sex we had during the past 9 years had just all built up. At first I was extremely and completely heartbroken. So I took my frustrations out by just going crazy, literally. So I ended up with a 5 day stint in the hospital. And it was there I mean one of my current best friends. And we have been great friends since, and I will talk more about her later.
So over that year I lost my husband who I thought was my best friend, I lost my best friend of over 20 years over another man (he wasn't really worth it, but turns out neither was she), I made new friends in my neighborhood who I absolutely fell in love with. Summer was great! My kids and I hung out at the pool almost every day. And if we weren't at the pool we were making the most of our superslide, or we were down in Fredericksburg at the Lake of the Woods enjoying the private beach and making more friends. Which is where I met man #1. I am single afterall, right? After the week or so of "funtime" with the man who assisted in breaking me and my best friend up I started dating/seeing another man that I met over a dating website. This time I thought it would be smart for me to date an older man, just a couple years older. However that didn't last. Turns out he was nothing that I wanted in a man. I wasn't physically attracted to him but I did enjoy his company. Maybe it was just that I was so alone I wanted to be with someone. But I did learn that perhaps I might like to try younger men. So I joined a few dating sites. Did you know that men are completely stupid and never read womens profiles but just look at the pictures? (and I do take great pictures, most of the time) Now, about 12 months after joining them, I have yet to meet or even email with a decent man. They are ALL complete morons! So I have closed all of the accounts. What a bunch of wasted money. So now I am flying by the seat of my pants, or lack there of.
So many of my newly or not so newly friends have hooked up with old friends they haven't seen or talked to in years, all because of Facebook. So I figured that I will "network" and see how that works. So far, its been interesting to say the least.
Well, I must log out for now. I hope to add more and more blogs daily and hope that some of the people I write about don't ever read this.
TTFN
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