Why do I put myself in these spots? so a man that I haven't talked to in years contacted me. At first I figured I would just talk to him to catch him up on all the shit that has gone down since he moved away. Well we ended up getting "romantic". Which is really crazy considering we haven't seen each other since 2000. And he is all buff and I am mostly fluff, not like his "usual" girls. we have talked everyday all day since November 27. (I checked our text history). Well a couple of weeks ago he started throwing out the L word. I asked him not too, that we haven't even seen each other. Oh, I left out that he lives in New Jersey.
He ended up in the hospital last week and I got scared. I did say I love you then, but I don't think he really heard me because he was so stressed out and rambling. We have maintained constant communication which is why I am so worried, pissed, and yet confused right now. He was supposed to come see me next week, but he called me Saturday that he was just going to come down then, and that he would be here by midnight. I called him around 11 to give him my address and his phone was dead. I started to get worried. I texted him the address anyways and took a sleeping pill, because I was so anxious. I woke up again at 2am. still nothing. No text and his phone was still off. so I went back to sleep thinking maybe he decided to just go back home since he was supposed to work in the studio on Sunday anyways, whatever. Well in my dream he totaled his car and got a truck. We lived together during this dream. Well the husband and wife who owned the truck before it was repoed tried to come take it back, well that wasn't happening. Not much other good stuff happened in the dream, other than Will threatening to beat the guys ass if he didn't leave.
Well I wake up at 7am, first thing I did was call Will, phone is STILL off. Now I am starting to get really worried. I tried texting him numerous times, no response. I tried calling- phone still went straight to voicemail. It wasn't until last night that his phone was back to normal. Yet still no response. so I have no idea how he is, if he is even OK, or if he is afraid that I'm going to be pissed that he didn't come down when he said he was. I'm not mad at the fact he didn't come down. Honestly I'm not prepared for him to come down yet. I didn't want him to come down til closer to New Years, when my kids will be at their dads. Plus I want to work on my body a little more. Since I know he's a fitness buff I have been busting my ass working out every day!!! and its paying off. Just since the weekend after Thanksgiving I have lost 15 pounds, 2 inches off my ass, 1 inch off my waist, and 2 inches off my boobs (not happy about that one). Not bad for not even a months worth of work.
Either way, I want to know what the hell is up!!! Is he OK? Is he not? Does he think I am pissed at him so he's avoiding me? (that's one surefire way to piss me the fuck off- that's for sure) I just need to know. I don't want to be mad at him if the is no reason to be. UGH!!! well hopefully I will feel a little better now that I have gotten this off my chest. I couldn't do my usual rant on Facebook because I don't need everyone knowing my business, at least this personal. Plus not a lot of people knew we were even "seeing" each other. DUMBFUCKERY!
Monday, December 19, 2011
Sunday, December 4, 2011
Its All Shitz & Gigggles *not for the weak
Oh my goodness, I know its been a while since I have done a blog, however after the weekend that I experienced I had to do one! DISCLAIMER: MOST NAMES HAVE BEEN CHANGED TO PROTECT THE NOT SO INNOCENT
This epic craziness started Friday night. What had happened was I went to my friend "Michelle's" house, well everyone was already wasted by the time I got there at 8:45pm. But how the night ended is where the story really starts. "Bob" was super wasted after a day of partying hard. He ended up making a complete puke fest. The puke fest that I witnessed reminded my of a baby bird opening its mouth for his momma to drop a worm in. But the circumstances are nothing like that. Then later "Michael" ended up getting so wasted that he was sitting at the dining room table and must have had a dream he was in the bathroom because he sure as fuck WASN'T really in the bathroom. Well he ends up pissing all over himself, in the dining room. And if that wasn't enough Michelle and I were playing cards. Playing war to be exact, but thats not the point. Well I start to hear water. But noone else except for us 2 are awake. So we go downstairs where the sound was coming from. We get downstairs to see the most horrible sight. "Robby" had gotten so shitfaced that he thought he was in the bathroom when he was REALLY just standing in the living room pissing all on the coffee table and floor. Michelle yells at him asking him what he was doing. He turns around to us, lil wee-nah still in hand AND still pissing and replys "nuthin". She yells ROBBY YOUR PISSING ALL OVER MY COFFEE TABLE, at which he replys "nuh-huh". So we go back upstairs to laugh about the craziness we have just experienced.
On Saturday I go back to Michelle & Michaels. Michelle has already told everyone what happened the night before, which was great because that was one secret that I knew there was no way I was going to be able to keep. Boy did that open a can of worms. There were a few more people there this time so the story got repeated over and over about the previous nights events. However, every person also had pissy pants or shitty drawers stories. I understand that we are all grown adults and should really not be talking about these kinds of things but we just couldn't help it. So here are some stories that were told.
"archie" starts off with, well it was free chili night at Hard Times Cafe (you know this story is going to be fucked up) and my stomach was already messed up but you can't pass up free chili. So he has the "farts" or so he thought. No, it was the sharts. His underroos feel a little mushy so he goes to the bathroom for further inspection. And yes, sure enough he had shit himself. And with that- he had to "abandon his underwear, right there in the bathroom".
So then this other man, I'll call him "danny". Well Danny was talking about doing some training or some shit for work. Kind of like a boot camp thing. He has finished one segment and is offered a chance to use the "loo". He kinda feels like he has to go but decides he can wait til the next one. He continues doing his training and his ass tells him theres no more waiting, but its ok he is almost to the "loo". But oh no, as he proceeds to the "loo" are he notices that he must climb up 2 ladders to get to it. His ass could no longer wait. When he finally gets to the pot he pulls down his pants and his drawers are "full". He doesnt have time to take off his boots and pants so he whips out his knife and cuts his underwear off right there and leaves them.
And of course I have had one of these miserable experiences as well. So I am not going to just talk about others mishaps I will include my own. I was sleeping and I was dreaming that I was in this elevator. The elevator cable broke and the elevator starts dropping, very fast and it scares the piss out of me. Literally! I got so scared I pissed the bed. My husband was in bed next to me and I had jumped up, right before I realized I had pissed the bed. He asked if everything was OK and I said I had a nightmare. I get up and go to the bathroom to clean up. When I come out he asks again, are you sure your OK the bed is wet. Then I had to tell him about the dream and he got up and changed the sheets and went back to sleep. We never spoke of this event again.
thats OK, Gene is also a victim of the nasty pants. Gene had to go number two so bad. He goes to the bathroom and being one of those people who are afraid to sit on a public toilet seat he perches above it prepared to drop his deuce into the toilet. However his deuce wasnt alone. It has lots of fast runny friends. He proceeds to paint the wall with fecal matter. (I believe this too also happened at Hard Times)
Well then theres another story of Danny. Danny was so wasted he was sitting on the toilet with the shits and puking into a trash can. Well the intoxication took over and he in turn fell over, plus let me mention he is not a little guy. He is neither short nor skinny. He proceeds to fall over. So the trashcan of puke goes all over him. FAIL!
So "mark" and "jessica" are super hammered and just met. They end up having a night of drunken sex. Jessica passes out and mark realizes he has to go pee. So he 1/2 eye open (yeah I just said that) gets up and goes to the bathroom. He is standing there pissing when he opens both eyes, just to see he is standing over the chick he just met, just banged and is pissing all over her. I don't think she ever called him again.
Yet another story, "regina" and "patrick" are celebrating New Years at a friends house with a few other couples and one of the guys brother. The brother had been hitting on Regina all night long. However Regina was with Patrick. They had gone up to a spare bedroom and were bringing in the New Year right, if ya get my drift. Well while they are in the middle of getting in on the brother comes into the room. They stop what they were doing. The brother proceeds over to the closet, opens it, and proceeds to piss in the closet which was full of clothes. Regina and Patrick finish their business and goes back to the party and tell dude's brother that he had just pissed in the closet. Oh boy did his wife get pissed! She made us all leave. I mean she made THEM leave, ooopsie.
I have many more stories to post but I have to work for a little while. I hope to get back on and finish this very inappropriate and gross blog.
This epic craziness started Friday night. What had happened was I went to my friend "Michelle's" house, well everyone was already wasted by the time I got there at 8:45pm. But how the night ended is where the story really starts. "Bob" was super wasted after a day of partying hard. He ended up making a complete puke fest. The puke fest that I witnessed reminded my of a baby bird opening its mouth for his momma to drop a worm in. But the circumstances are nothing like that. Then later "Michael" ended up getting so wasted that he was sitting at the dining room table and must have had a dream he was in the bathroom because he sure as fuck WASN'T really in the bathroom. Well he ends up pissing all over himself, in the dining room. And if that wasn't enough Michelle and I were playing cards. Playing war to be exact, but thats not the point. Well I start to hear water. But noone else except for us 2 are awake. So we go downstairs where the sound was coming from. We get downstairs to see the most horrible sight. "Robby" had gotten so shitfaced that he thought he was in the bathroom when he was REALLY just standing in the living room pissing all on the coffee table and floor. Michelle yells at him asking him what he was doing. He turns around to us, lil wee-nah still in hand AND still pissing and replys "nuthin". She yells ROBBY YOUR PISSING ALL OVER MY COFFEE TABLE, at which he replys "nuh-huh". So we go back upstairs to laugh about the craziness we have just experienced.
On Saturday I go back to Michelle & Michaels. Michelle has already told everyone what happened the night before, which was great because that was one secret that I knew there was no way I was going to be able to keep. Boy did that open a can of worms. There were a few more people there this time so the story got repeated over and over about the previous nights events. However, every person also had pissy pants or shitty drawers stories. I understand that we are all grown adults and should really not be talking about these kinds of things but we just couldn't help it. So here are some stories that were told.
"archie" starts off with, well it was free chili night at Hard Times Cafe (you know this story is going to be fucked up) and my stomach was already messed up but you can't pass up free chili. So he has the "farts" or so he thought. No, it was the sharts. His underroos feel a little mushy so he goes to the bathroom for further inspection. And yes, sure enough he had shit himself. And with that- he had to "abandon his underwear, right there in the bathroom".
So then this other man, I'll call him "danny". Well Danny was talking about doing some training or some shit for work. Kind of like a boot camp thing. He has finished one segment and is offered a chance to use the "loo". He kinda feels like he has to go but decides he can wait til the next one. He continues doing his training and his ass tells him theres no more waiting, but its ok he is almost to the "loo". But oh no, as he proceeds to the "loo" are he notices that he must climb up 2 ladders to get to it. His ass could no longer wait. When he finally gets to the pot he pulls down his pants and his drawers are "full". He doesnt have time to take off his boots and pants so he whips out his knife and cuts his underwear off right there and leaves them.
And of course I have had one of these miserable experiences as well. So I am not going to just talk about others mishaps I will include my own. I was sleeping and I was dreaming that I was in this elevator. The elevator cable broke and the elevator starts dropping, very fast and it scares the piss out of me. Literally! I got so scared I pissed the bed. My husband was in bed next to me and I had jumped up, right before I realized I had pissed the bed. He asked if everything was OK and I said I had a nightmare. I get up and go to the bathroom to clean up. When I come out he asks again, are you sure your OK the bed is wet. Then I had to tell him about the dream and he got up and changed the sheets and went back to sleep. We never spoke of this event again.
thats OK, Gene is also a victim of the nasty pants. Gene had to go number two so bad. He goes to the bathroom and being one of those people who are afraid to sit on a public toilet seat he perches above it prepared to drop his deuce into the toilet. However his deuce wasnt alone. It has lots of fast runny friends. He proceeds to paint the wall with fecal matter. (I believe this too also happened at Hard Times)
Well then theres another story of Danny. Danny was so wasted he was sitting on the toilet with the shits and puking into a trash can. Well the intoxication took over and he in turn fell over, plus let me mention he is not a little guy. He is neither short nor skinny. He proceeds to fall over. So the trashcan of puke goes all over him. FAIL!
So "mark" and "jessica" are super hammered and just met. They end up having a night of drunken sex. Jessica passes out and mark realizes he has to go pee. So he 1/2 eye open (yeah I just said that) gets up and goes to the bathroom. He is standing there pissing when he opens both eyes, just to see he is standing over the chick he just met, just banged and is pissing all over her. I don't think she ever called him again.
Yet another story, "regina" and "patrick" are celebrating New Years at a friends house with a few other couples and one of the guys brother. The brother had been hitting on Regina all night long. However Regina was with Patrick. They had gone up to a spare bedroom and were bringing in the New Year right, if ya get my drift. Well while they are in the middle of getting in on the brother comes into the room. They stop what they were doing. The brother proceeds over to the closet, opens it, and proceeds to piss in the closet which was full of clothes. Regina and Patrick finish their business and goes back to the party and tell dude's brother that he had just pissed in the closet. Oh boy did his wife get pissed! She made us all leave. I mean she made THEM leave, ooopsie.
I have many more stories to post but I have to work for a little while. I hope to get back on and finish this very inappropriate and gross blog.
Friday, September 23, 2011
Oooops i did it again
So I finally meet my perfect man. we fell in love the first night we met. I thought this was the one!! However, I did something really stupid and he got acred and is worried that it would not have a positive outcome on his battle. oh well, FML!!!!
Monday, September 19, 2011
Alot Going on And All Smiles
Where do I begin? School has started and none of the kids have been kicked out, yet. Unfortunately I found mia's journal. She is very down on herself, she feels fat because samantha keeps telling her that she is. And she really isn't. Not everone can be 5ft 10inches and weigh 120 pounds. Mia just looks like a woman. And she only turns 12 next month. She is a little Gina with her daddys face. But I was glad to see she has set some serious goals for herself. Educational and physical. She wants to get great grades so she can get into a good college so she can really be something. I was so proud when I read that. It wasn't until the next part that I got mad. She said I am fat like and daddys girlfriend but she is prettier. Well, when I was that fatass's age, I was slim, trim, and FINE! Yeah I could loose a few pounds (more like 40) and I probably will. she also wrote about something bad that had happened to her and she was too scared of my mom that she never came forth to say what happened. i really wish she did, because justice could have been served. Instead my mother and sister made sam look like a lieing tramp. And I will never be able to talk to my sister ever again over it, and I really don't even want to talk to my mom. Anyways-let me get off that subject. I just wish Mia was a little more outgoing so she could make more friends. She didn't make one over the summer. When it was the first (and second) day of school I had to walk her to her bus stop because she had no idea where the bus stop was or even how to get home. I ask her every day if she is making friends. And her face lights up and she says YES. So I am very happy about that! on to the next spawn....
Kimberlee, kimberlee, kimberlee!!!! Well she was the only one excited about school starting. then the Thursday before school started she fractured her right leg in a bicycle mishap. so she couldn't go to school the first day. She made it 4 days before she decided how much she hates her teacher. The sad thing is that I had to work so I couldn't take the girls to their orientations. So my good friend Cory came up and took them. He later told me that he knew that would happen because he even thought she was a real bitch. Thanks for the warning Cory.... However kim has made alot of friends. And she told me there is a boy, Brian in her class that she likes. OH LORDY!! she is too young for a boyfriend. She is doing so much better at reading, I am so proud of her. However she still hates homework. I need to set up a reward system for her for doing AND finishing her homework. She is still seeing a therapist to get ahold of her anger and abandonment isses. He dad never calling like he promises and only sees them once a month, if that. Ok, on to the next spawn...
My own pet Giraffe named samantha. I love her dearly but she is a handfull. but what can I expect? She is so much like me when I was her age. Except she doesnt stay over her boyfriends house. She got really lucky by changing schools so she is happy with her classes. Except weight training. Turns out its an actual class. She wasn't expecting that, LOL. She has been making all kinds of friends, just like I used to (well, lets admint it, I still do). She seems to get along with all of her teachers so far. So thats great!
So now about me, wait- isnt this all about ME,ME,ME?? Well, I am not thrilled about my job......
Crap i am running out of time, I may have to finish this tomorrow.
TO BE CONTINUED TOMORROW!!! and I have some exciting news!
Kimberlee, kimberlee, kimberlee!!!! Well she was the only one excited about school starting. then the Thursday before school started she fractured her right leg in a bicycle mishap. so she couldn't go to school the first day. She made it 4 days before she decided how much she hates her teacher. The sad thing is that I had to work so I couldn't take the girls to their orientations. So my good friend Cory came up and took them. He later told me that he knew that would happen because he even thought she was a real bitch. Thanks for the warning Cory.... However kim has made alot of friends. And she told me there is a boy, Brian in her class that she likes. OH LORDY!! she is too young for a boyfriend. She is doing so much better at reading, I am so proud of her. However she still hates homework. I need to set up a reward system for her for doing AND finishing her homework. She is still seeing a therapist to get ahold of her anger and abandonment isses. He dad never calling like he promises and only sees them once a month, if that. Ok, on to the next spawn...
My own pet Giraffe named samantha. I love her dearly but she is a handfull. but what can I expect? She is so much like me when I was her age. Except she doesnt stay over her boyfriends house. She got really lucky by changing schools so she is happy with her classes. Except weight training. Turns out its an actual class. She wasn't expecting that, LOL. She has been making all kinds of friends, just like I used to (well, lets admint it, I still do). She seems to get along with all of her teachers so far. So thats great!
So now about me, wait- isnt this all about ME,ME,ME?? Well, I am not thrilled about my job......
Crap i am running out of time, I may have to finish this tomorrow.
TO BE CONTINUED TOMORROW!!! and I have some exciting news!
Thursday, August 11, 2011
Saturday, July 2, 2011
Changes Have Been Made
Welcome back, sorry I know its been a long time since my last blog. So much has happened. Let me make it quick. I lost my awesome job at Massage Envy for an unknown reason, whatever. I was out of work for a month, living on $156 a week in unemployment. Luckily I got another job, doing something I had done in the past, within a month. So I am now at eLove Matchmaking- you know- making love happen one couple at a time. So far I enjoy it. I spend my days mostly playing cards or on facebook. And my evening busy with clients. I have super hours! I don't have to be in until almost noon, woo-hoo. Except for Saturdays, which is 9:15am, yuck-no Friday night partying! :( I have been struggling with it a little for my first month. However yesterday I did fantastic so I feel great about it.
Next up, we finally moved! So I now have a place of my own again so I can have friends come over (well once I get some furniture). Its hard starting all over again, but its worth it. The rent is reasonable. The location is convenient. The safety, well not so much. Its a great townhouse, the girls are comfortable in it. Plus its right by the pool, which is only open on the weekends-LAME!
On the LOVE front. I'm still not in any kind of committed relationship, I hope to change that soon. Got a couple of prospects.....
The summer has started off good. Kim & Sam are continuing with therapy to help them deal with all the changes in their life. Mia is just going with the flow. I am talking more civilly with the EX so that is good. I am still not pleased with the choices he has made since moving out, but there's nothing I can do about it. Its over between us and there is absolutely no hopes of reconciliation, and I have finally realised that.
Well this is what I get for trying to blog while at work. I have a client now so I have to go, but I hope to update more real soon!
Take care, and have a safe holiday if I don't get back on here sooner. I have a long weekend off. I'm off at 1 today and don't have to work again until 12 on Wednesday!
Love,
Gina
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Next up, we finally moved! So I now have a place of my own again so I can have friends come over (well once I get some furniture). Its hard starting all over again, but its worth it. The rent is reasonable. The location is convenient. The safety, well not so much. Its a great townhouse, the girls are comfortable in it. Plus its right by the pool, which is only open on the weekends-LAME!
On the LOVE front. I'm still not in any kind of committed relationship, I hope to change that soon. Got a couple of prospects.....
The summer has started off good. Kim & Sam are continuing with therapy to help them deal with all the changes in their life. Mia is just going with the flow. I am talking more civilly with the EX so that is good. I am still not pleased with the choices he has made since moving out, but there's nothing I can do about it. Its over between us and there is absolutely no hopes of reconciliation, and I have finally realised that.
Well this is what I get for trying to blog while at work. I have a client now so I have to go, but I hope to update more real soon!
Take care, and have a safe holiday if I don't get back on here sooner. I have a long weekend off. I'm off at 1 today and don't have to work again until 12 on Wednesday!
Love,
Gina
Monday, March 7, 2011
Times are Changing
So much has happened since my last blog that I don't even know where to begin.
Well, lets start with work. Work has been amazing. We finally managed to get rid of the 2 bad seeds on the FD team. One went gracefully, the other, well not so much. I have been promoted again. This time I was promoted to Assistant Clinic Administrator. It comes with alot of responsibility and a totally crappy salary, but a good bonus structure. I have been working an average of 40-45 a week anyways. One of my closest comrades quit to go work for another Massage Envy. Another one put in her too weeks. I love them both and I will miss them both so much! Myself and another management leader have devised a master plan to make our clinic number one in the country. And I really think we can do it. I had my oldest at work with me on Saturday. Well, she now wants to work at Massage Envy. I told her I didn't think she would be able to sell. And she says, mom- I'm your kid, of course I'll be able to sell. And if it doesn't come naturally you can teach me.
At the home front, well that gets complicated. First my mother tells me she is cutting my rent in 1/2 so I can save to move out. Then within days of that she tells me that my brother is moving out. So I don't know if I am to pay the 1/2 or the whole thing now. I think now that he is moving out it will make a big difference (not that he personally had anything to do with it) since that gives the girls a real bedroom and I have to finish converting the garage into a real room. I have to put up drywall over the unfinished front area. I have to take down the garage door track since there is no longer a garage door. But I have to wait until we get a shed to put all the stuff that is in the garage into. I just hate not being able to have friends over. I don't always feel like going out but I have to if I want to hang with my friends. I miss my sister so much! I haven't been able to talk to her in so long. It really sucks that I lost 2 of the people I loved the most in about 18 months.
My ex finally got a place of his own. Well as much of on his own as could be considering he got an apartment with his girlfriend, whom I despise. He plans on taking ALL 3 of the girls twice a month instead of just taking the 2 younger ones once a month. And they are super happy about that. I am still super crushed. And he doesn't understand my anger. Come on, he tells me that was tired of being married yet moves right from me to someone else in less than 60 days of moving out. Ummm, if you don't want to be married, why are you living with another woman? It makes it seems like he didn't like being a father. I know that he loves his daughters dearly but the only thing that is different. He is living with a woman just with no kids. And I hope she knows that they will never have kids together. I'm sure he has forgotten but in 2008 he had to sign a form in order for me to have my hysterectomy, that he didn't want anymore children. I may have to remind him before shamoo starts reproducing.
Oh and a good one, Bro Code overrules FWB code. yeah, I learned the hard way. (no pun intended) That's all I'll say about that. I hope that I can get my room done in a timely manner. I am so stoked to have a room of my own! One that is not used as a living room, play room, office, and my bedroom. Oh and did I mention it has its own entrance?
About my mother, urgh she is killing me. But not like you think. She is so miserable and lonely. I want her to meet a man. I think she would be so much happier. I recently heard of this thing called Professionals in the City. Well they have speed dating and I want my mom to go. (well truth is I want to go too but we are in different age brackets) I think she would enjoy it. I may just look into it and buy her a tickets!
My youngest baby has been going to therapy every week. She is getting better at reading. She just hates doing homework so much. It is such a hassle to get her to brush her hair and teeth! Drives me b-a-n-a-n-a-s!!
My oldest, well all I can say is at least she isn't getting into trouble like in Cville. She is still skipping some classes and not being smart about it. If your gonna skip a class, 1- you don't hide out in stairways! 2- you make sure you get all your classwork done.
Crap, I just saw the time. And I gotta get going. When I started typing I didn't know what I was going to type. But then once I started all kinds of things came to me.
Ya'll take care. I will write again as soon as I can. Don't forget to email me if there is anything I have written about previously and you would like a follow up!
Well, lets start with work. Work has been amazing. We finally managed to get rid of the 2 bad seeds on the FD team. One went gracefully, the other, well not so much. I have been promoted again. This time I was promoted to Assistant Clinic Administrator. It comes with alot of responsibility and a totally crappy salary, but a good bonus structure. I have been working an average of 40-45 a week anyways. One of my closest comrades quit to go work for another Massage Envy. Another one put in her too weeks. I love them both and I will miss them both so much! Myself and another management leader have devised a master plan to make our clinic number one in the country. And I really think we can do it. I had my oldest at work with me on Saturday. Well, she now wants to work at Massage Envy. I told her I didn't think she would be able to sell. And she says, mom- I'm your kid, of course I'll be able to sell. And if it doesn't come naturally you can teach me.
At the home front, well that gets complicated. First my mother tells me she is cutting my rent in 1/2 so I can save to move out. Then within days of that she tells me that my brother is moving out. So I don't know if I am to pay the 1/2 or the whole thing now. I think now that he is moving out it will make a big difference (not that he personally had anything to do with it) since that gives the girls a real bedroom and I have to finish converting the garage into a real room. I have to put up drywall over the unfinished front area. I have to take down the garage door track since there is no longer a garage door. But I have to wait until we get a shed to put all the stuff that is in the garage into. I just hate not being able to have friends over. I don't always feel like going out but I have to if I want to hang with my friends. I miss my sister so much! I haven't been able to talk to her in so long. It really sucks that I lost 2 of the people I loved the most in about 18 months.
My ex finally got a place of his own. Well as much of on his own as could be considering he got an apartment with his girlfriend, whom I despise. He plans on taking ALL 3 of the girls twice a month instead of just taking the 2 younger ones once a month. And they are super happy about that. I am still super crushed. And he doesn't understand my anger. Come on, he tells me that was tired of being married yet moves right from me to someone else in less than 60 days of moving out. Ummm, if you don't want to be married, why are you living with another woman? It makes it seems like he didn't like being a father. I know that he loves his daughters dearly but the only thing that is different. He is living with a woman just with no kids. And I hope she knows that they will never have kids together. I'm sure he has forgotten but in 2008 he had to sign a form in order for me to have my hysterectomy, that he didn't want anymore children. I may have to remind him before shamoo starts reproducing.
Oh and a good one, Bro Code overrules FWB code. yeah, I learned the hard way. (no pun intended) That's all I'll say about that. I hope that I can get my room done in a timely manner. I am so stoked to have a room of my own! One that is not used as a living room, play room, office, and my bedroom. Oh and did I mention it has its own entrance?
About my mother, urgh she is killing me. But not like you think. She is so miserable and lonely. I want her to meet a man. I think she would be so much happier. I recently heard of this thing called Professionals in the City. Well they have speed dating and I want my mom to go. (well truth is I want to go too but we are in different age brackets) I think she would enjoy it. I may just look into it and buy her a tickets!
My youngest baby has been going to therapy every week. She is getting better at reading. She just hates doing homework so much. It is such a hassle to get her to brush her hair and teeth! Drives me b-a-n-a-n-a-s!!
My oldest, well all I can say is at least she isn't getting into trouble like in Cville. She is still skipping some classes and not being smart about it. If your gonna skip a class, 1- you don't hide out in stairways! 2- you make sure you get all your classwork done.
Crap, I just saw the time. And I gotta get going. When I started typing I didn't know what I was going to type. But then once I started all kinds of things came to me.
Ya'll take care. I will write again as soon as I can. Don't forget to email me if there is anything I have written about previously and you would like a follow up!
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Little bit of katsup
So how is everyones new years resolutions going? Did you make any resolutions? I did. I want to loose at least 40 pounds (my brother got me Biggest Loser workout for wii for xmas), get focused on moving up at work, be a better mom (more focused on getting their homework done and going to bed on time), getting my own place again, and finding a good man.
Well so far, I did get a promotion. And a whooping .50/hour raise. But like who didn't see that happening? I'm a star in my own movie. There are only 2 people on the front desk who have issues with me. One, because he wanted the position (FYI, he is too much of a diva to deserve it), the other is just really retarded and rather than try and make friends and gain respect from his coworkers, he rolls people under the bus. Just so you know dudes, all you're doing it setting yourself up to get canned. The rest of us try to work as a team and look out for each other. When I was promoted, I did tell the owner that I'd like to be the trainer, which is definately possible, I just have to perfect all the scripts. And no, not the ones I have in my purse, ;) SO enough about work.
I have been trying to eat better. But with my work schedule, I haven't been able to fit it in. I'll work for 8 hours and not eat one thing. And at home, especially with only 1 TV which there is always someone watching something. At least at work I try to eat fruit, slimfast, and smartones or healthy choice meals (I do not eat anything else). Work in progress. I am positive that as soon as it starts to get warmer out, I will make time to take the dogs back out for walks. Hell I may even throw on the rocket roller skates.
On the mommy factor, When I work til 3 or 4 I am able to make sure to help them get their homework done, since they dont get home until330 anyways. However, when I work later- Sam is babysitting. And she is more focused on her twitter, formspring, facebook, and whatever the hell else she does on the internet. Rather than what she is getting paid for. I am paying her 75% of my hourly pay pretty much for nothing and then she still expects to go out with her friends on the weekends. All I ask, is to make sure homework is done within an hour of when they get home and that she keeps my room straightened (the kids feel that its a play room, so their toys and other crap get all over it), and if I work later than 4, to make dinner. Urgh, enough here. Onto the next.
Well, on getting a place of our own, thats gonna take a minute. With my crapass pay right now, it isnt gonna happen. I mean, hell- I get more in child support than I do working 40 hours a week. I need to get back to making at least $4000 a month to make it happen. I am tired of my old ass van too. The radio hasnt come on in over a week now, at least I have radio on my phone. I need a nused whip. But the house is more important since I dont have any real issues with the van. Its just really hard because I am going to have to stay here in this part of burke so the girls can stay in their schools.
On the man front (he-he, I said man-front). Well, I haven't really met anyone that I would like to go out with on a second date or a real date. I met this one guy, but still again-he's in his mid 20's. There's just certain things I look for in a man, and good sex is one of them. And unfortunately I don't think any of them would be good in bed. They all seem to be lacking in one part, the man front. My friends tell me to go out with the guys anyways just to go out. But I'd rather hang out with my friends then go out with a guy that I know it isnt going to go anywhere. Am I looking at this wrong? I am going to be changing my circle of friends as well. I am just really freaking tire of my one friends daughter. She is just so fucking annoying. When I'm at their house she'll walk in and say, OMG what is Gina doing here? And then 5 minutes later come over and give me a hug. WTF!! Her boyfriend is kinda cute though. So not my type. But still fun to hang out with. You still with me or did you get bored already? Oh hell, lets talk about the juicy stuff. So I met this one guy over the internet (hey-don't judge, everyone is doing it). We met up, he was even cuter in real life. We had a great time playing pool. We ended up having some serious mouth to mouth action. If it wasn't a school night, that night may have ended up differently. Not sure about the man-front on that guy. There is this other guy that I have known for almost 10 years. I was married almost the whole time, he was with someone for the past few years, however they just broke up. He asked me about going out, but I just dont think I can do it. Yeah we get along great. He was my pretend husband when the real husband was overseas. But there are 2 big factors. One, I really like his girlfriend. She was really really cool. And I know how it feels when you and your man break up and he goes right to someone you know, or someone that you thought was a friends at one time. It hurts, it hurts real fucking bad. And I don't think its something that you ever get over. And the second thing, he's chocolate. I just don't go for the non white guys ( a latino slips in there every 15 years or so, even though I know they all got the same "issue"). Wow, I have been at this for 2 hours now (for 1 I was watching Jersey Shore too). Speaking of Jersey Shore, I gotta go get my tan on, so I'm signing off for now.
TTFN
Well so far, I did get a promotion. And a whooping .50/hour raise. But like who didn't see that happening? I'm a star in my own movie. There are only 2 people on the front desk who have issues with me. One, because he wanted the position (FYI, he is too much of a diva to deserve it), the other is just really retarded and rather than try and make friends and gain respect from his coworkers, he rolls people under the bus. Just so you know dudes, all you're doing it setting yourself up to get canned. The rest of us try to work as a team and look out for each other. When I was promoted, I did tell the owner that I'd like to be the trainer, which is definately possible, I just have to perfect all the scripts. And no, not the ones I have in my purse, ;) SO enough about work.
I have been trying to eat better. But with my work schedule, I haven't been able to fit it in. I'll work for 8 hours and not eat one thing. And at home, especially with only 1 TV which there is always someone watching something. At least at work I try to eat fruit, slimfast, and smartones or healthy choice meals (I do not eat anything else). Work in progress. I am positive that as soon as it starts to get warmer out, I will make time to take the dogs back out for walks. Hell I may even throw on the rocket roller skates.
On the mommy factor, When I work til 3 or 4 I am able to make sure to help them get their homework done, since they dont get home until330 anyways. However, when I work later- Sam is babysitting. And she is more focused on her twitter, formspring, facebook, and whatever the hell else she does on the internet. Rather than what she is getting paid for. I am paying her 75% of my hourly pay pretty much for nothing and then she still expects to go out with her friends on the weekends. All I ask, is to make sure homework is done within an hour of when they get home and that she keeps my room straightened (the kids feel that its a play room, so their toys and other crap get all over it), and if I work later than 4, to make dinner. Urgh, enough here. Onto the next.
Well, on getting a place of our own, thats gonna take a minute. With my crapass pay right now, it isnt gonna happen. I mean, hell- I get more in child support than I do working 40 hours a week. I need to get back to making at least $4000 a month to make it happen. I am tired of my old ass van too. The radio hasnt come on in over a week now, at least I have radio on my phone. I need a nused whip. But the house is more important since I dont have any real issues with the van. Its just really hard because I am going to have to stay here in this part of burke so the girls can stay in their schools.
On the man front (he-he, I said man-front). Well, I haven't really met anyone that I would like to go out with on a second date or a real date. I met this one guy, but still again-he's in his mid 20's. There's just certain things I look for in a man, and good sex is one of them. And unfortunately I don't think any of them would be good in bed. They all seem to be lacking in one part, the man front. My friends tell me to go out with the guys anyways just to go out. But I'd rather hang out with my friends then go out with a guy that I know it isnt going to go anywhere. Am I looking at this wrong? I am going to be changing my circle of friends as well. I am just really freaking tire of my one friends daughter. She is just so fucking annoying. When I'm at their house she'll walk in and say, OMG what is Gina doing here? And then 5 minutes later come over and give me a hug. WTF!! Her boyfriend is kinda cute though. So not my type. But still fun to hang out with. You still with me or did you get bored already? Oh hell, lets talk about the juicy stuff. So I met this one guy over the internet (hey-don't judge, everyone is doing it). We met up, he was even cuter in real life. We had a great time playing pool. We ended up having some serious mouth to mouth action. If it wasn't a school night, that night may have ended up differently. Not sure about the man-front on that guy. There is this other guy that I have known for almost 10 years. I was married almost the whole time, he was with someone for the past few years, however they just broke up. He asked me about going out, but I just dont think I can do it. Yeah we get along great. He was my pretend husband when the real husband was overseas. But there are 2 big factors. One, I really like his girlfriend. She was really really cool. And I know how it feels when you and your man break up and he goes right to someone you know, or someone that you thought was a friends at one time. It hurts, it hurts real fucking bad. And I don't think its something that you ever get over. And the second thing, he's chocolate. I just don't go for the non white guys ( a latino slips in there every 15 years or so, even though I know they all got the same "issue"). Wow, I have been at this for 2 hours now (for 1 I was watching Jersey Shore too). Speaking of Jersey Shore, I gotta go get my tan on, so I'm signing off for now.
TTFN
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