So my previous blog was about this man William Stackhouse. So we made up and things were pretty good. He had stopped being a douchebag. On Friday, January 6, 2012 we spent alot of time that day talking about our future together. He was finishing up with his CD and his book. Things were looking up for him. And for us. He wanted the CD to come out then move down here to Virginia with me. It was some of the best conversations we had had. I talked to him on my way home from work. He was hanging out with a friend of his. He said he would call me later. Well he didn't. I was kind of upset, but not really. After all I knew he was with his friend. The next morning I texted him Good Morning. No response from him. That night, I texted him good night. Still no response. OK, now I am starting to get pissed. I tried calling and texting on Monday, still no response. So i just figured he was blowing smoke up my ass. My boss had asked me how William was and if I had talked to him. I said no and made a comment that I now regret. I said his dumbass was probably dead. BEING SARCASTIC!!! Fast forward to today. I came to work in a great mood. I had my whole day planned out. I was going to be productive. I log in to Facebook and the very first thing I see, RIP Will, on his brothers facebook page. I LOST MY SHIT!!!!! So many things went running thru my head. WHAT, WHEN, WHY, WHO WAS HE WITH.
I finally found out that he actually passed on January 7, 2012. The very next day after I last spoke to him. So he never even got to read my texts. I feel so lost. I feel so hurt. We had plans, things to do. I was going to see him on January 28 when my girlfriend and I went back to New Jersey for her boyfriends memorial. they too had just had the same conversation in December and he was killed in Afghanistan on December 11. What are the odds? seriously? That 2 girlfriends, both in long distance relationships, both lose the men they love in less than 1 month apart. My head is killing me, my heart hurts, and my hands wont stop shaking. I would do anything to go back to that night and try and talk him into just going home and not stay at his friends. May, just maybe things would have turned out different.
William Stackhouse
you are loved and will be greatly missed.
May 7, 1969- January 7, 2012
Ronnie Wildrick
August 22, 1981- December 11, 2011
YOU WERE BOTH LOVED DEARLY! <3 <3
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