I hate it when life gets even more complicated than it already is. I am in the most screwed up position right now, I just don't know what to do.
I got a new job at the holiday inn near my house. I work in the mornings as a server and some evenings in the banquet department working parties. Well, I just found out that when I do banquet events I only get paid my hourly pay ($7). Yet the company charges the event holder a 20% fee. OK! I did catering sales, in a hotel. And I know damn well that we paid the individuals that worked that fee. The only person that doesn't get a part of it is the bartender. I busted my ass for this holiday party on Sunday. I was so pissed when I found this out! What fucking place does this? So I am back looking for a new job, again. I hate looking for jobs! I miss the days when they came to me. UGH! Its so frustrating. Oh, and when I work breakfast I don't make shit. I had been working with someone so we split tips. I was going home with between $15-25. I worked by myself twice this week. One day I made about $20 and then next $60. Sure, its not bad for 6 hours of work, but its not enough to take care of my family. So frustrated!
Men, men, men! Wow, now this is where shit gets complicated. So the man that I had blogged about in September (the one that I really liked but I fucked it up) is back in my life. But not how I want. He made it clear that we are "just friends". Or in his words, and I quote, "I like hanging out with you but that's as far as it goes. You're my friend but, I don't want more than that. I'm not the asshole, I don't mean to be. I like your company. I don't want to complicate that. I'm not a faker, if you feel that I led you on. I never told you I love you or that you're the one. We hang out, we have a good time. If you expected more you should have said something more"............... really douche bag??? What part of "hey, I see your single again. can I have another chance?" did you not fucking get? When I had texted him that, his reply was yes. Yet a week later here we are. I am not going to lie. I do enjoy being around him. I just don't know it its really him or just that I am with someone or just the fact that I am out of the house.
Cue next craziness, the ex, oh my the ex.... Well in October I made the "mistake" of telling my ex I was "excited". Well bam 45 minutes later we are naked in the bathroom at my work. Afterwards he says, this is just sex. Yeah, I am cool with that! Well this past weekend it happened again. I had sent him an email at 3am about the kids. He texts me back to see if I was still awake. And there you go, he's at the house about 30 minutes later. After we do our thing I pull such a douche move. I was like, well thanks for the awesome ass get off my bed and go sleep on the couch. And he's all like, yeah I guess it would confuse the kids if they woke up to mommy and daddy in the same bed. ya think??? He was supposed to come over the next day anyways to hang with the kids. In the morning the oldest kid texts him to see when he was coming over and he tells her that he is already here. All she could muster up was "awkward".
And the next guy.... Oh my! Now this one, I should not be talking to at all! Its just asking for trouble. But I can't help it, I like trouble. No he is not a bad boy. he is just young, very young. I met him 2 years ago when I was staying at my moms, from the same dating site that I met guy #1. He was 24 then. He is in college and he is very sexy! I have not had sex with him, yet. We only communicate 6 months of the year, the other six he is in another state. Well he is back home and hit me up the other day. Damn, why do I put myself in these spots? I like sex, I really really do. I am only with DB #1 so I can date other guys and not have sex with them. Yet I can't seem to find a guy that I like. One that I can just chill with like guy #1. Here's what I need, I need a human mixer. Take some parts from guy #1- how awesome it is when we hang out with the certain body parts of guy #2 and the fact that I can have him over my house and the "eagerness" of guy #3, that would be perfect. But no, life is no where near perfect!
Blah, all this thinking, cleaning, and job hunting for the past few hours has made me exhausted. I'm taking a nap.
Thanks for reading!
Wednesday, December 19, 2012
Sunday, December 9, 2012
New Job...Work...Work...Work....
I am going to start off by telling you about the weight loss challenge. My friend Amber and I are busting our butts at the gym. We had gone almost every day last week working out anywhere from an hour to 2 hours. I didn't realise it was so fun to work out with a buddy. We did our measurements as well. I have done very well for our first week, now to just keep it going. Now with my work schedule it has been tough for the past few days.
Speaking of work. So I am not at MVC/Le Tache anymore (after December 11 I will do a massive bitch blog about them). I have been wanting to get back into the hospitality industry for a couple of years now. Looking for a new job had been so horrible! The online applications SUCK!!!! All I needed was a place that I could go in and apply in person because I am awesome!! Well that happened. I did it, and I got the job, on the spot! Where did I get a job you ask, well thats the sucky part. I got a job in the restaurant/banquet department of a Holiday Inn up the street from the house. Here's how it was explained to me, first start out doing breakfast serving in the full service restaurant, then add on working in banquets, then working server during the dinner shift, then to bartender. However, there is a huge catch. Noone can know of my experience. Which really sucks because I am a sayer not a doer! I get people to do work, I don't like to do it myself. For instance today, today they had to set up a conference in the restaurant area. OMG!!!!! it took them over 30 minutes to figure out how to set up the tables (for 12 people!!). It was as if they had never held a meeting at the hotel before, and its 4 years old. Finally I was just like, HOLD UP, look put the tables like this, place the other tables over there, cover them like this, and BAM. So then the Restaurant Manager (who get his, his last name is Asshat, HTF can I take anyone serious with a name like that) anyways, he gets there and asks why the meeting is set up like that. First I wanted to say, well you told me yourself that you don't have anyone reliable in the banquets department yet you are showing up an hour before it starts AND you still have to make their lunch???? Whatever, I told him why I thought it was the best way, not to mention it was listed on the banquet order to be set up like that. He looks at me and says, yeah you're right. DUH OF COURSE I'M RIGHT!!!! I wanted to just say, dude, I have worked in every department in the hotel yet I have never worked in one this small. I could do circles around you in my sleep! He talks to the staff like they are all stupid, which they totally are not, they are all Latina and smart as shit!! And really care about their jobs and making the customers happy.
Oh, let me backup to serving for breakfast. For the time being the guests get either a free buffet breakfast coupon ($8.99 value) or a coupon for up to $20 off anything on the breakfast menu. Well NO ONE, and I mean NO ONE orders off the menu. People will pay for only 1 guest in the room yet 4 will come to eat. The lady training me (whose birthday also happens to be the same as my daughters-TODAY) never offers it. I told her today, look, I know its going to piss off the ladies in the kitchen but I want to start offering the guests the menu. As of January 1 we will no longer be serving the free buffet anyways, why not start getting into the habit now. Right now we are making between $6-$20 a day in tips. That is not enough to live on! The breakfast prices are $8.99-$12.99 plus drinks and extras, that's at least $3 per person. Right now we are averaging $.50 a person. I hope she doesn't mind but I am trying it tomorrow. For example, we have had this group in house since Friday. And have only been tipped about $.50-$1.00 for their lunch (which was only $9.95) Most didn't tip at breakfast.
~ be tee dubbs people, if you go to a hotel and you get breakfast *even if its free, and you are eating off nice plates, real silverware, and someone gets you your beverage and cleans up after you TIP THEM YOU JERKS!!!!!
Anyways..... Well yesterday the RM sent my "trainer" home and had me stay to take care of the only 2 people who ordered food from the restaurant (I'll get to the shit in a minute). well, these 2 ladies lunch was $15.00/together. And they tipped me $6.00. OK, back to there only being 2 people eating lunch. FUCK THAT!!! The lady in sales who booked that shit needs to be slapped (especially since she is the owners wife, she should know better!!!) Our restaurant isn't open for lunch, just catering. Who the hell books a meeting for 35 people yet permits only 2 people to order? Seriously, we had to have a server, a cook, and a dishwasher on staff for a $15 tab, hell to the no!!!!! At least 50% or a minimum of 12 people need to order. We have alot of banquets and meetings this week. Hopefully I'll get to show my mad skills again!
I am also going to talk to the GM about working some dinner shifts. I am sure they make way more money, plus they get an automatic 20% gratuity for room service. Not to mention, I HATE working at 5:30am. Anyways, I hope that I can get somewhere with this job. Either way, it is my first steps to running a bed & breakfast, which I will do!
Damn, I really wanted this to be a more fun blog but I got on a rant. Tomorrow, or tonight if I can't sleep I will post about the dating thing.
Speaking of work. So I am not at MVC/Le Tache anymore (after December 11 I will do a massive bitch blog about them). I have been wanting to get back into the hospitality industry for a couple of years now. Looking for a new job had been so horrible! The online applications SUCK!!!! All I needed was a place that I could go in and apply in person because I am awesome!! Well that happened. I did it, and I got the job, on the spot! Where did I get a job you ask, well thats the sucky part. I got a job in the restaurant/banquet department of a Holiday Inn up the street from the house. Here's how it was explained to me, first start out doing breakfast serving in the full service restaurant, then add on working in banquets, then working server during the dinner shift, then to bartender. However, there is a huge catch. Noone can know of my experience. Which really sucks because I am a sayer not a doer! I get people to do work, I don't like to do it myself. For instance today, today they had to set up a conference in the restaurant area. OMG!!!!! it took them over 30 minutes to figure out how to set up the tables (for 12 people!!). It was as if they had never held a meeting at the hotel before, and its 4 years old. Finally I was just like, HOLD UP, look put the tables like this, place the other tables over there, cover them like this, and BAM. So then the Restaurant Manager (who get his, his last name is Asshat, HTF can I take anyone serious with a name like that) anyways, he gets there and asks why the meeting is set up like that. First I wanted to say, well you told me yourself that you don't have anyone reliable in the banquets department yet you are showing up an hour before it starts AND you still have to make their lunch???? Whatever, I told him why I thought it was the best way, not to mention it was listed on the banquet order to be set up like that. He looks at me and says, yeah you're right. DUH OF COURSE I'M RIGHT!!!! I wanted to just say, dude, I have worked in every department in the hotel yet I have never worked in one this small. I could do circles around you in my sleep! He talks to the staff like they are all stupid, which they totally are not, they are all Latina and smart as shit!! And really care about their jobs and making the customers happy.
Oh, let me backup to serving for breakfast. For the time being the guests get either a free buffet breakfast coupon ($8.99 value) or a coupon for up to $20 off anything on the breakfast menu. Well NO ONE, and I mean NO ONE orders off the menu. People will pay for only 1 guest in the room yet 4 will come to eat. The lady training me (whose birthday also happens to be the same as my daughters-TODAY) never offers it. I told her today, look, I know its going to piss off the ladies in the kitchen but I want to start offering the guests the menu. As of January 1 we will no longer be serving the free buffet anyways, why not start getting into the habit now. Right now we are making between $6-$20 a day in tips. That is not enough to live on! The breakfast prices are $8.99-$12.99 plus drinks and extras, that's at least $3 per person. Right now we are averaging $.50 a person. I hope she doesn't mind but I am trying it tomorrow. For example, we have had this group in house since Friday. And have only been tipped about $.50-$1.00 for their lunch (which was only $9.95) Most didn't tip at breakfast.
~ be tee dubbs people, if you go to a hotel and you get breakfast *even if its free, and you are eating off nice plates, real silverware, and someone gets you your beverage and cleans up after you TIP THEM YOU JERKS!!!!!
Anyways..... Well yesterday the RM sent my "trainer" home and had me stay to take care of the only 2 people who ordered food from the restaurant (I'll get to the shit in a minute). well, these 2 ladies lunch was $15.00/together. And they tipped me $6.00. OK, back to there only being 2 people eating lunch. FUCK THAT!!! The lady in sales who booked that shit needs to be slapped (especially since she is the owners wife, she should know better!!!) Our restaurant isn't open for lunch, just catering. Who the hell books a meeting for 35 people yet permits only 2 people to order? Seriously, we had to have a server, a cook, and a dishwasher on staff for a $15 tab, hell to the no!!!!! At least 50% or a minimum of 12 people need to order. We have alot of banquets and meetings this week. Hopefully I'll get to show my mad skills again!
I am also going to talk to the GM about working some dinner shifts. I am sure they make way more money, plus they get an automatic 20% gratuity for room service. Not to mention, I HATE working at 5:30am. Anyways, I hope that I can get somewhere with this job. Either way, it is my first steps to running a bed & breakfast, which I will do!
Damn, I really wanted this to be a more fun blog but I got on a rant. Tomorrow, or tonight if I can't sleep I will post about the dating thing.
Monday, December 3, 2012
Weight Loss Challenge Part 4
Ok, so this is part 4 of my weight loss challenge. And oh has it been a challenge! So I tried 2 different weight loss supplements.One month I did Slimquick. And the next I did Alli. I think I lost more on Alli, however the side effects are horrible. I'll let you google those yourself. Slimquick did help with my appetite. However, I did start this challenge at about 204 (I honestly don't remember) then this week I got up to 217, no shit!!! However, after seeing "the man" again, I got a quick reality check to get my ass in shape. I always lose weight better when a man is involved. Whether I see him in real life or just an internet/text "relationship". I haven't been involved with anyone since September so I haven't really been focused on the gym or getting in shape.
Let me reevaluate my plan, first off I am going to make sure I get my 8 glasses of water a day, I know that this makes a huge difference. Next I have to watch the late night eating. And the third part is staying focused on working out! I am super sore today, but that's all good. I am going to work out abs and legs again, they aren't sore enough from yesterday. My girl, Amber is going to help me along on this journey. Having a real live person really helps. We both are in the same boat, I am just 40 pounds more than her. But we got this!!
Let me reevaluate my plan, first off I am going to make sure I get my 8 glasses of water a day, I know that this makes a huge difference. Next I have to watch the late night eating. And the third part is staying focused on working out! I am super sore today, but that's all good. I am going to work out abs and legs again, they aren't sore enough from yesterday. My girl, Amber is going to help me along on this journey. Having a real live person really helps. We both are in the same boat, I am just 40 pounds more than her. But we got this!!
How Weird The Way Things Happen
Good Morning Campers!
I know I haven't written in a while, life's been crazy! So let me catch you up. I turned 40! Wow, its finally here. I stopped smoking cigarettes, 90% at least. You know what, let me try to keep this blog focused on one topic. And I'll go with the one that is the most pressing on my mind (well one of the two). So I blogged a couple of months agout about this man. Well last week I had to drive up the street he lives off of. I had a passing thought and then I wished I could have him back. Go figure, Friday I am out with my friends and I happen to check my OKCupid account. And guess who comes up as a local perfect match. HIM!! So of course I emailed him. I had to. I mean come on, with what had happened just days before, and bam he is single again. He did email me back right away, an exchange of numbers, and bammo. So I hung out with him Saturday like nothing bad had ever happened. I will definitely do things a little different. I won't talk about ex's or other men. And I won't get drunk. Another cool thing, he has quit smoking too.
He looks so adorable! Grew out his beard and his hair, I love it. He lost weight, toning up his muscles even more. So you know what that did, got my ass back at the gym. I had gained 20 pounds since the "split". There are some things that are on my mind though (like enough that I couldn't even sleep Saturday night, yes at his place) So, should I mark my territory? Should I ask him right off the bat, just so we are clear, -hey are you going to still be dating other women? He's good, very good. He knows just how to make you feel like you are the only one. But due to what happened last time, I know better. I just don't want to come off too strong too fast. However, when I did email him, I did ask if I could have another chance. Did that make my point clear? Its not like I said, hey want to have sex? I mean this shit kept me up all night long. And usually when I stay at his place I sleep very well in his bed.
Here is a minor fault with him. Every time we were supposed to watch a movie that lil shit would go and watch it anyways (just like my sister does my mom). So this week, we are supposed to watch Batman on Thursday. I swear if he watches it before then( it comes out tomorrow), I will be so pissed.
Damn, like now as I write this, all I can think about is kissing him. I almost went all the way to his place just to do just that last night. But I didn't. ALMOST, but I didn't. I have balls, big balls. Just not big enough right now. I just want to tell him how I feel and whats up. I think I am just going to let it ride this out, for the first week.
Oh, and the crazier part, I had just started talking to the ol' FWB again, I will just keep that to a non physical relationship. And I met another guy at the local watering hole. Now that guy is cool as shit, he just is not physically my type, at all. We were supposed to hang out Friday, but my girlfriend asked me to come hang out with her, and I chose her over him (fantastic night BTW). I didn't text him at all, all weekend. And I am not cancelling any of my "memberships" just yet. oh, and I haven't added him on Facebook again, just yet. I mean, hell, he just became "single" Thursday (yes- he moves fast).
So I'll catch you up to date on that next week.
cheers!!!!!
I know I haven't written in a while, life's been crazy! So let me catch you up. I turned 40! Wow, its finally here. I stopped smoking cigarettes, 90% at least. You know what, let me try to keep this blog focused on one topic. And I'll go with the one that is the most pressing on my mind (well one of the two). So I blogged a couple of months agout about this man. Well last week I had to drive up the street he lives off of. I had a passing thought and then I wished I could have him back. Go figure, Friday I am out with my friends and I happen to check my OKCupid account. And guess who comes up as a local perfect match. HIM!! So of course I emailed him. I had to. I mean come on, with what had happened just days before, and bam he is single again. He did email me back right away, an exchange of numbers, and bammo. So I hung out with him Saturday like nothing bad had ever happened. I will definitely do things a little different. I won't talk about ex's or other men. And I won't get drunk. Another cool thing, he has quit smoking too.
He looks so adorable! Grew out his beard and his hair, I love it. He lost weight, toning up his muscles even more. So you know what that did, got my ass back at the gym. I had gained 20 pounds since the "split". There are some things that are on my mind though (like enough that I couldn't even sleep Saturday night, yes at his place) So, should I mark my territory? Should I ask him right off the bat, just so we are clear, -hey are you going to still be dating other women? He's good, very good. He knows just how to make you feel like you are the only one. But due to what happened last time, I know better. I just don't want to come off too strong too fast. However, when I did email him, I did ask if I could have another chance. Did that make my point clear? Its not like I said, hey want to have sex? I mean this shit kept me up all night long. And usually when I stay at his place I sleep very well in his bed.
Here is a minor fault with him. Every time we were supposed to watch a movie that lil shit would go and watch it anyways (just like my sister does my mom). So this week, we are supposed to watch Batman on Thursday. I swear if he watches it before then( it comes out tomorrow), I will be so pissed.
Damn, like now as I write this, all I can think about is kissing him. I almost went all the way to his place just to do just that last night. But I didn't. ALMOST, but I didn't. I have balls, big balls. Just not big enough right now. I just want to tell him how I feel and whats up. I think I am just going to let it ride this out, for the first week.
Oh, and the crazier part, I had just started talking to the ol' FWB again, I will just keep that to a non physical relationship. And I met another guy at the local watering hole. Now that guy is cool as shit, he just is not physically my type, at all. We were supposed to hang out Friday, but my girlfriend asked me to come hang out with her, and I chose her over him (fantastic night BTW). I didn't text him at all, all weekend. And I am not cancelling any of my "memberships" just yet. oh, and I haven't added him on Facebook again, just yet. I mean, hell, he just became "single" Thursday (yes- he moves fast).
So I'll catch you up to date on that next week.
cheers!!!!!
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