Good Morning Campers!
I know I haven't written in a while, life's been crazy! So let me catch you up. I turned 40! Wow, its finally here. I stopped smoking cigarettes, 90% at least. You know what, let me try to keep this blog focused on one topic. And I'll go with the one that is the most pressing on my mind (well one of the two). So I blogged a couple of months agout about this man. Well last week I had to drive up the street he lives off of. I had a passing thought and then I wished I could have him back. Go figure, Friday I am out with my friends and I happen to check my OKCupid account. And guess who comes up as a local perfect match. HIM!! So of course I emailed him. I had to. I mean come on, with what had happened just days before, and bam he is single again. He did email me back right away, an exchange of numbers, and bammo. So I hung out with him Saturday like nothing bad had ever happened. I will definitely do things a little different. I won't talk about ex's or other men. And I won't get drunk. Another cool thing, he has quit smoking too.
He looks so adorable! Grew out his beard and his hair, I love it. He lost weight, toning up his muscles even more. So you know what that did, got my ass back at the gym. I had gained 20 pounds since the "split". There are some things that are on my mind though (like enough that I couldn't even sleep Saturday night, yes at his place) So, should I mark my territory? Should I ask him right off the bat, just so we are clear, -hey are you going to still be dating other women? He's good, very good. He knows just how to make you feel like you are the only one. But due to what happened last time, I know better. I just don't want to come off too strong too fast. However, when I did email him, I did ask if I could have another chance. Did that make my point clear? Its not like I said, hey want to have sex? I mean this shit kept me up all night long. And usually when I stay at his place I sleep very well in his bed.
Here is a minor fault with him. Every time we were supposed to watch a movie that lil shit would go and watch it anyways (just like my sister does my mom). So this week, we are supposed to watch Batman on Thursday. I swear if he watches it before then( it comes out tomorrow), I will be so pissed.
Damn, like now as I write this, all I can think about is kissing him. I almost went all the way to his place just to do just that last night. But I didn't. ALMOST, but I didn't. I have balls, big balls. Just not big enough right now. I just want to tell him how I feel and whats up. I think I am just going to let it ride this out, for the first week.
Oh, and the crazier part, I had just started talking to the ol' FWB again, I will just keep that to a non physical relationship. And I met another guy at the local watering hole. Now that guy is cool as shit, he just is not physically my type, at all. We were supposed to hang out Friday, but my girlfriend asked me to come hang out with her, and I chose her over him (fantastic night BTW). I didn't text him at all, all weekend. And I am not cancelling any of my "memberships" just yet. oh, and I haven't added him on Facebook again, just yet. I mean, hell, he just became "single" Thursday (yes- he moves fast).
So I'll catch you up to date on that next week.
cheers!!!!!
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